The Winter Roller Coaster

Good Friday Evening to you all....
This week just seemed to drag by for me. I'm so sick of snow and slush and mud I could scream! The weather has been so wierd.......unseasonably warm one day, and then 5 inches of snow the next. Today was gorgeous, and tomorrow looks to be even better, and then Sunday is going back to being cold again. My parents both have had nasty colds all week, so Grams didn't get to come and visit this week. I really missed her, too. I could use a good hug from my own Mommy.
One of my dearest friends, L, is very ill right now, fighting PPH. The battle that she is fighting is a slow and painful one. As if she doesn't have enough on her plate right now, she slipped and fell this week and broke her arm. I've cried an ocean of tears since receiving the news, and am still very emotional about it. She is the most caring, giving, loving person, and I struggle every day trying to understand why these things happen to such good people. I claim to be strong in faith, yet sometimes I question His will. And then THAT upsets me with myself, and I start crying all over again. Logic tells me it is human nature, but I still feel shameful. I get so angry sometimes, and just want to scream to the Heavens...............and then He teaches me a lesson once again. One that I will never forget. H had a problem with her alarm clock this morning, and was running very late for work. I knew she was upset at the situation, and knew she would be in a hurry while driving. As soon as she dropped J off this morning, I stopped and said a prayer asking God to keep her safe.
WELL, little did I know that He already had!!! As she was driving into town, she was stuck in traffic because of a multi-car pileup. She had to find a different route to work, and while crossing a bridge overlooking the interstate, she saw all the traffic still backed up, and it occured to her that had she been on time this morning, it very well could have been HER involved in the accident. "Our God is an awesome God, He reigns"!!!! His hand is in every aspect of our lives, and sometimes He just needs to remind me. Thank You, Lord, for keeping her safe, and for the lesson learned.
J is doing very well, learning new things every day. I just love his little "lightbulb moments" Today we were on the floor playing with his different colored stacking rings. (You've ALL seen them, they've been around forever), we had been rolling them, and tossing them, and having a wonderful time, when all of a sudden, he picks up the big blue one, and looks at me, and then puts it up to his eye and looks through it at me. Apparently I looked totally goofy that way, because he just started LAUGHING! Then he had to do it with all the other ones, and I joined in the game, and he was belly laughing for the longest time. I could have played it all day.........I just adore hearing him laugh. My sweet Momma has always said "no day is complete until you hear the laughter of a child". How true! It must have worn him out, tho, because shortly after that he took a nap for almost 2 hours. The silence was heart breakingly deafning. I love him so.........