Logic vs. Heartbreak

So today I get an e-mail from my daughter, showing me some Gerber products that she was interested in finding for my little man-babe. It is a really cool feeding bowl, and a special spoon "dipper", designed to make it easier for him to learn to feed himself. He is eating really well, and will eat anything we put on a spoon..........and is doing GREAT getting the Cheerios all the way to his mouth now. My first reaction was "sure, let's give it a try". .......And then it was time to feed him his lunch. A ton of bricks landed on my heart. While feeding him, I realized just how much I love our time together at the table. We are totally focused on each other, and laughing, and having the best time.......O.K., I'll just come right out and say it......he is depending on me. And since then, I've been struggling with the concept of letting go of that. I know, it's TOTALLY selfish of me, and TOTALLY illogical, but I can't help it. He's growing SO fast, and I just want to stop the clock! My head tells me another door will open, but my heart screams NNOOOO!!!!!!! Is it actually the feeding time that bonds us, or is it the sweet cuddle time that comes shortly afterwards, when his little tummy is full, and we've played for a bit, and he gets sleepy, and lays his head on my shoulder, and pats my arm while I sing his "sleepy song"? Or the combination of it all? Is it wrong of me to want him to need me forever? I felt the very same way with his Momma, and she STILL grew up on me!! I think the fact that I know from experience just how quickly the years fly by is what makes me even more scared with him than I was with my own. I'm having a harder time letting myself let go of all the infancy stages this time. Don't get me wrong, I look forward to all there is to come, I've just learned the hard way how much these days need to be savored, and the older I get, the faster it seems to go. More time,.........I just want more time..........